The first quarter of this year is almost over and yet here I am writing my first post again. Oh well. What happened? My apprenticeship is going fine so far, I still feel quite happy with the company and where I am now, but we got bought by a much larger one. I guess that's just life. It doesn't matter too much for me anyway since I am borderline not able to be fired for as long as I don't do anything extreme of course. I tried to find a flat to move out for the past months and sometimes I do find one that I can pay for that isn't too far away from work, but it's always already taken. It sucks honestly, because I am confident that living on my own would be great for my health. I'll eventually find something if I keep looking.
On a more personal note, I've decided to drastically cut back on things regarding social media and politics, because the times are changing and I frankly do not want to engage with the utter
madness that is this world now and I don't mean specific people out there like Donald Trump, who has been the punching back for the political left right next to Elon Musk. The Right isn't better
off either with how much they frame the political Left to be mentally ill. What side is better then? Obviously, none. But just looking at this whole scene as two sides of the same coin is also
still quite a shallow view. People have their reasons to think the way they do. The problem, the way I see it at least, is on a more fundamental level: Everyone refuses to talk with others that
think differently. You either ignore, or actively paint others as the enemy. Having an enemy is great, because obviously you don't talk with an enemy, right? True, until shit hits the fan and
people really start dying and with the current trajectory in politics, no matter if you look at the Left or Right, it's all the same: More aggressive rhetoric and fantasies to destroy others and
going to war.
I'm done with this. If people want to kill each other again, let them do it. I won't be part of this. Am I gonna change my mind again over this in the future? Possibly. But right now, I am just
done with this utter madness. I can stand there, explaining people that they need to get their shit together and talk, but no one is listening to me. Maybe we really need a war to remind people
how good they have it. I just wish there would be a peaceful way.
It all feels like advancing time. In one moment, the world seems peaceful and fine. The next everyone has enemies and wants to destroy them. It reminds me of the euphoria of German soldiers in
WW1. At least it has a calming consistency to it, knowing that once it's over, things will get better again.
Speaking of things getting better: I've visited my mother after Christmas last year. It felt good. Especially the day after I've really come to realization how much I've missed her.
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