Today was really not a good day. It's April Fools so I thought to execute an idea I had months ago: Placing little rubber duckies across the office. I find them to be rather adorable, cute even.
Funny too. Harmless even. What I did not consider was the level of annoyance they could bring to someone. The other apprentices found the encounter of finding their work desks each being covered
by 4 little ducks funny and they played with them a bit. That squeaking of said ducks however did piss of our main mentor quite a lot and he told them off multiple times, getting really
angry.
Nobody noticed, but I ended up crying on my place. Not because our mentor was angry. I could not give more of a damn about that. But the fact others got shit on, because I did not think this
whole thing through. But then, why should it be my responsibility to make sure that the consequences of my actions don't lead to others messing something up, that is rather obvious? Isn't it
clear, that you shouldn't squeak rubber duckies extensively? But again, I could also ask myself the same question: Was it insensible of me to even consider this a good April Fools joke?
I don't regret buying and placing them around the office. I still find the idea to be a good one. I can't and I don't see myself to adjust my own behaviour, just because others don't care or
don't understand the consequences of their own. However, it does hurt me a lot when I see people getting shit on because of something that only happened, because I went out of my way and actually
decided to interact with my environment for once. I feel like this always happens when I decide to get out of my shell and it hurts.
To me, it just shows that I am better off alone. As always. I cried. I'll remove the ducks tomorrow if they haven't been thrown away already and just decorate my own room with it. Then nobody
needs to get hurt.
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