Little update again. I want to get back on two things I've talked about last month. Regarding the exam I had in my company:
I failed it! It was such a tragedy with how it happened. Both the theoretical as well as the actual programming I started off amazingly, but as soon as I've made a single mistake it all came down
crumbling as I got nervous and started cascading down into a pool of chained mistakes and...that was it. But I still got into the team! And now I face a new challenge that is the realization that
almost everything I've learned in the past 8 months was more or less useless. The good news however is that I am now learning a lot faster and (in my opinion) actually important things a
developer should now since I now work with proper seniors. I feel like I am bashing my head against the wall at work at times now and I certainly feel like I am the dumbest in the group and that
is most definitely true. However, I am an apprentice surrounded by seniors, obviously I am the one with the least amount of experience. Still, I feel much worse than I actually am. I know that
I'm in this group for a reason: I am one of the most talented newcomers.
Speaking about new: My Japanese is going along well given it's been barely three weeks. I did take it more slowly to not get burned out, so I am still practicing Kana, but I've been done with it
for over a week now. Just gotta reinforce it until I can read just fine. Once I reached that point I will focus on Kanji and listening and use that knowledge to practice writing or rather
typing.
On another note, I finally got around to properly implement version control for my biggest project I've been working on for the past six years. Kinda ironic I never bothered doing anything beyond
that but hey, I paused the project for over a year and just recently got back so beat me. Anyway, I am right now in the process of refactoring most of it's code base before I start to finish
everything on the current roadmap so I can finally publish the damn thing but that will probably take another 2-3 years if I am being completely honest. It will be amazing though!
I've also completely given up engaging with politics for almost two months now and I feel great about it. It just makes me depressed to see how the majority of people seem to have lost any
intention of trying to live together peacefully. I'm ignoring that toxic part of my life now and focus on my career instead. I can't change the world anyway so why would I be mad about how it
changes? A little bit of ignorance can be great I've come to notice.
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